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What to do when you are bullied by a narcissist

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Apr 18
What to do when you are bullied by a narcissist

Have you ever dealt with a full-blown narcissist in your life?

They flatter you, court you, are nice and accommodating while it serves their purpose. Once you realise that this isn’t a mutual relationship, you are stuck.

The narcissists invest just enough time, energy and money to keep you amused. They tangle carrots on sticks in front of your nose and persuade you to stay another day.

But all the while you know that they are taking advantage of you, betraying you behind your back and abusing your good will, loyalty and dedication.

Living with a narcissist as your partner, parent or in work is frustrating, exasperating and painful. It undermines your self-worth and confidence. You feel inferior, never good enough for them.

Yet, it is extremely difficult to escape their clutch and free yourself. Because they know exactly how to lure you back in.

And once you sever your relationship for good, once you choose your physical and mental health over them, their wrath can be brutal, disproportionate (sometimes with psychopathic tendencies) and unforgiving.

But why do narcissists act and react the way they do? What is driving them?

​Why do we fall in their traps and feel we cannot escape?

But, most importantly: how can you protect yourself?

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From the narcissist’s perspective: An insightful glimpse into a narcissist’s motivation

My husband and I struggled with 2 top-of-the-class narcissists for many years. First we fought for their acceptance, respect and love. Then we battled to escape their abuse. And 7 years later we still warded off their attacks.

I know everybody’s situation is different. And the narcissistic spectrum is wide. But through my own experiences, I learned how extreme narcissists think and why we get caught in their trap.

I also had to find ways to overcome the trauma of their bullying and find peace (and even happiness) while the narcissistic storm raged around us.

Today, I want to share these important lessons in the hope that they may help you in a similar situation.

Let’s start with the sad reasons why narcissists behave the way they do.

1. A narcissist’s tragic addiction

Narcissists are addicted to wealth, power and status and the resulting recognition and admiration. They don’t seek love, human connection or mutual relationships. Severe narcissists are incapable of these feelings (poor sods if you think of it!).

They seek other people’s admiration, adoration and devotion. That’s their #1 goal in life.

Why?

Because narcissists have no self-worth. Despite their overinflated egos, subconsciously, they feel entirely unworthy.

They compensate for this feeling of complete worthlessness by focussing on the accumulation of status symbols. And by surrounding themselves with people who admire, adore and approve of them. Who agree with them, overlook their shortcomings and never challenge anything they propose.

Because any opposition, rejection or mistake plummets them into an all-consuming chasm of unworthiness.

So, narcissists surround themselves with people who want to please. They feel important and worthy when others agree, serve and provide for them.

But they only care for themselves.

2. A narcissist’s distorted definition of love

​Narcissists don’t strive for love. They don't seek a happily ever after, a mutual feeling of closeness, affection and connectedness. All they require is a regular ego boost and self-worth injection.

This can be devastating and hard to accept if it's your spouse, friend or parent. You love them. And you hope that your love is reciprocated.

​Now, don’t get me wrong!

In their own miscontrued way, they do care for you. Enjoy your company. Flatter you.  Maybe even do love you.

But only as long as you give them what they crave. Undivided attention, unwavering admiration and submission without ever questioning them.

As long as you can provide narcissists with this fix, they will humour you. Psychologists call this “Narcissistic supply”.

But what happens once you decide to leave the one-sided relationship and emotional abuse? How do they react when you end the relationship, file for divorce or remove yourself from their company?

​3. A narcissist needs constant supply

Narcissists siphon their fleeting sense of worth off other people. Either by being admired or by making others feel inferior to them.

The latter makes them top-notch bullies.

​But let’s face it!

Even if you love somebody blindly, you can only endure this treatment for a limited period of time. Sooner or later, your dedication will crumble, your enthusiasm will fade and the relationship will drain you. You can't give the narcissists everything they need any longer.

If you don't abandon the relationship at that point, the narcissists will look for alternative supply. Their behaviour towards you will change. Interactions will grow colder, you may be ignored or punished and affairs may start.

Bullying, humiliation and abuse will increase. Because, as much as it hurts, you are no longer of use.

The narcissists might tolerate you for as long as you aren’t a threat. But this is what you become once you start to challenge them, hold them responsible for their actions, point out their mistakes or end the relationship.

At that point, you are likely to experience what is called “narcissistic rage”.

​4. A narcissist cannot forgive or forget

Narcissistic rage occurs when you dare to withdraw the admiration and approval narcissists require to feel good about themselves.

​Because you are robbing them of their self-worth.

Furthermore, the loss of control over you causes fear and distress. You could defame them, ruin their reputation and dispute their importance. You could publicly expose their worthless and ugly self.

A true narcissist won't tolerate this threat, insult and insubordination.

The result is anger. Depending on the degree of narcissism, this anger can be extremely aggressive and totally over the top.

They will do everything to protect their reputation, material possessions and way of life. They will make your life difficult.

And as long as you remain in their reach, you are reminding them of the fact that they are worthless. Despite all the lengths they went through to gain admiration and build a reputation, there is this one person who knows about their worthlessness and true motives.

This person becomes a scape goat that the narcissists blame for all their misfortune.

But where does this leave you?

From your perspective: The narcissists’ behaviour has nothing to do with you

The effects of dealing with a narcissist every day, be it your spouse, partner or a family member, are detrimental on your own self-worth. Especially when you start to withdraw narcissistic supply to save your own sanity and self-respect. And the narcissist's interest in you fades.

Yes, you might think that their love returns if you could just be slimmer, look younger, work harder, serve better.

Yes, they might see the error of their ways if you become the person they want you to be. It is easy to believe that it is you who is wrong, unacceptable and unworthy.

But it is imperative to remember that the way they treat you ​doesn't mean that you aren't good enough as a person!

It is the narcissistic personality that takes advantage, doesn’t care much for others and uses them for their purposes. It is not a reflection of you or your worth!! It doesn’t mean you are a failure or unlovable!

Narcissists will treat everybody the same. They don’t know any other way to boost their self-worth than leaching it off others.

It is not your fault!

The narcissists’ behaviour has everything to do with you

​You can’t choose your parents or siblings. And you certainly don't actively seek a love relationship with a narcissist.

But you are stuck in the co-dependent relationship with a narcissist because your own self-worth is low.

Deep down you feel unlovable. And you compensate by pleasing others. You only feel worthy of other people's love if you do what they want, provide what they need and look after them.

Let’s face it, it’s the much nicer way to compensate for low self-worth! But it is still compensation.

It is fundamental that you boost your self-worth by realising that you ARE worth. You deserve love and respect! Infinite, unconditional worth is your essence and nobody can take it away from you.

You are good enough! No matter what!

Even if the narcissists make you feel interior. This is just their (much less nice) way to compensate for lack of self-worth.

What to do if you feel trapped in a relationship with a narcissist

If you find yourself involved with a narcissist, it is crucial to realise that you are not a victim​!

You have a choice:

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    You can do whatever they demand and hope that it is enough. But you will live in constant fear that they will abandon you if your efforts aren’t up to scratch. Sooner or later it will destroy you, leave you anxious, depressed, unfulfilled and jealous. You will never have their unconditional love. No matter how much you do for them, how much you change and distort to please them. Not because you aren’t worth it. Just because they are unable to give it. Not only to you, but to anybody.
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    You can stick with them in the hope that you might be able to change them, fix them, make them see the error of their ways. It works in Disney movies, right? But the sad truth is that you are likely wasting your time. I know it hurts. I know you want to save them. Want them to see the world the way you see it. But you are not responsible for teaching them, convincing them or even forcing them to change. You are responsible only for your own happiness in this one lifetime. The question now is: can you really be happy with them in your life?
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    You can leave. I know this is the most terrifying option. Your life will be turned upside down. You might have to fight your way out. Suffer the narcissistic rage. Start all over. But your freedom will be worth it. I realise it is an overwhelming, frightening thought now but you deserve better. You ARE worth!

What happens when you decide to leave?

I don’t want to scare you. But if you are dealing with a full-blown narcissist, your life might be difficult for a while after you leave.

This is because the narcissists need to ensure that you do not damage their reputation, finances and way of life.

And they do this through attack.

But you can (and will) get through this! It will pass.

And below are the 5 life-changing realisations that helped me survive the trauma, move forward and live a happy life despite narcissistic rage directed towards me and my family.

1. What to do if a narcissist is destroying your reputation and credibility

The typical narcissist strategy of dealing with a person they lost control over is by discrediting them.

My husband and I were called thieves, liars, embezzlers and even terrorists. Yes, it hurts. But it is important to remember that people who really know you won’t believe it and people who don’t know you won’t care.

We found that the best way to deal with it was to ignore it. Not reciprocate, not respond, not bother. Sometimes, faced with a barrage of false allegations, upsetting lies and slander, this was painful. We wanted to defend ourselves, put the record right. But this would just have fuelled the narcissists' attack.

And, after all, what other people think of us is none of our business!

Keep boosting your self-worth! Keep reminding yourself that you are a lovable, worthy person who deserves happiness.

And what other people say or think about you doesn't change a thing about it!

​2. How to deal with fear and anxiety

When the narcissistic storm started to rage, my worst problem was the fear. I spent whole days hiding under my desk.

Literally!

And fear is an understandable reaction! Your life is under attack, your livelihood threatened. It’s a horror scene from a soap opera you never wanted to star in.

But there are ways to cope with the fear, to make this upsetting time easier for you.

And here are my 3 favourite exercises:

Affirmations

​The most effective and powerful affirmations I use are: “I AM worth” and “I am safe. All is well in my world.”

Repeat them as often as you need them. You might not believe it straight away but repetition is the key.

Grounding

​​​​​​​Existential worries (about finances, housing and livelihood) cause energy blockages in your body. These blockages create fear, anxiety and panic attacks.

You can counteract this by daily grounding exercises​:

"Stan​​​​d with your feet hip-width apart. Visualise strong roots like those of a tree growing from the soles of your feet into the ground, deeper and deeper.

They are anchoring you, stabilising you, giving you a solid foundation to build your new life on. They also absorb the Earth’s energy which is positive, healing and revitalising.

​Allow the uplifting energy to fill your body. Washing away anxiety, uncertainty and suffering. Sense the security, safety and balance the roots provide."

Stay in the position as long as it is comfortable but a few minutes once a day are usually enough.​​​​​

BURST THE BUBBLE technique

​This is a very powerful exercise.

Emotions are energy in motion. They are supposed to arise, flow through us and leave again. When we hold on to them, the emotional energy coils up into a spherical shape. These energy bubbles block your energy system causing fear and panic attacks.

However, you can actively delete them.

"So, when fear, anxiety or anger take over, focus on the emotion. Feel it. Describe it.

Is it warm or cold? Is it prickly or fluffy? What colour is it?

Where is it in your body? Locate it. Is it in your heart, your stomach, your head?

Once you know where it is, visualise it as a bubble or balloon and pop it with your finger or an imaginary needle."

This will release the circular energy that causes the blockage and bring relief. Do this as often as you need to. Whenever fear, hopelessness, anger or emotinal pain arise.

3. How to accept that justice isn't your concern

I remember in the early days of the narcissistic storm, we received daily threatening letters. We experienced distress, anxiety and heartache.

And I wanted justice! How could they mistreat us and get away with it?

We went to the police but they said they couldn’t help. Where was the justice? We were good people with good intentions.

Why did this happen to us while the perpetrators remained unpunished and untouched?

The feeling of helplessness and injustice almost killed me. But then I realised that I had the choice to be happy. Not once they stopped attacking us, not once justice was served, not once I had my revenge.

Now.

The truth is that narcissists are highly unhappy people. Deep down, they hate themselves, feel worthless. They are driven by unconscious compulsions and consumed by anger, hatred and fear.

Whether they see it or not, they suffer. Every minute of every day.

And the best justice you can serve is to be happy, to live a fulfilled life. Love, laugh and know your worthInvest your time and energy in happiness, not resentment and revenge.

Your life will never be perfect. But that doesn’t mean it can’t be happy! Don't wait for things to settle down and all the stars to align.

Focus on happiness now!

​4. How to practice compassion (even if they might not deserve it)

I know what you’re thinking. How could these people that attack, bully and threaten you even deserve your compassion?

The answer is not for their sake. But for your own.

Wishing them misery, doom, suffering and gout will not change anything about their life or behaviour towards you. But the resentment, anger and hatred will erode your soul, destroy your happiness and damage your health.

You can hold on to all these negative feelings or you can let them go. You have a choice.

They are miserable people living miserable lives. They need your compassion. But more importantly, you need it too.

You deserve happiness. You ARE worth!

5. Why it's crucial that you choose your fights

It's imperative to fight for your rights. You ARE worth and you deserve respect.

The thing is though that narcissists fight as a matter of principle. Losing, being in the wrong and defeat is a testimony of their worthlessness. Their feeling of worth and relevance is a fragile construct of illusion, self-deception and lies.

And they will defend it.

If you only still fight to be right, then ask yourself whether your happiness and quality of life are worth more than having the last word.

Maybe it’s time to move on.

Not winning an argument doesn't mean that you weren’t good enough to succeed. It means that you love and respect yourself enough to leave a miserable situation behind without shame and feelings of inferiority. 

So you can finally be happy again. 

How to avoid falling prey to a narcissist again

I don’t know your situation and I cannot tell you what to do. My experiences might not reflect what you are going through. But I hope that they can help you understand your struggles and make the next steps to free yourself and regain your life.

I know it is terrifying.

But you will get through it. One step at a time. Detaching yourself from a narcissist can be difficult, uncomfortable and scary at times.

But the end result is worth it. YOU are worth it!

You deserve to be free, live without abuse, humiliation, exploitation and neglect. You can start to re-build your self-worth.

And your life.

You deserve to be happy. You are worthy of other people's respect, love and genuine affection. Always remember!

You don’t need to serve, please and bow to be acceptable. You ARE worth! You are lovable. You are good enough. Now and forever, just the way you are.

Once you realise this, you won’t fall prey to a narcissist ever again.

They are attracted to low self-worth. If you boost your self-worth, if you know that you deserve better, they will go and ruin someone else’s life. Sad but true.

So speak after me: I AM WORTH!

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About the Author

Dr Berni Sewell, PhD is a health scientist, energy healer and self-worth blogger. She is on a mission to make you feel good about yourself, no matter what. Download her free guide Instant self-worth: an easy 4-step solution to heal your self-worth in under 5 minutes a day” and start to boost your confidence today.

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